hiatus
why does it feel as if everything's just going down the drain again? it's so tiring to try and be the one who wants to work things out. to want to make things better. to make it work. it's depressing when i'm met with non-commitment. it hurts. really. what am i doing wrong? am i being too demanding? am i asking too much?
i talk so much, have so much to say and yet i'm met with such short answers. distant and detached. and you asked me to give you one more chance. yet why do you treat me this way?
i am depressed. i am disturbed. i am upset. it doesn't matter anymore. i'm declaring a self-imposed hiatus from all things related to online social communication. or at least, i'll appear invisible.
i don't want to be alone. but what's the point of having someone who isn't there at all?