After weeks of non-playing, finally got around to completing Phoenix Wright: Ace Attorney. I just wanted to know the ending. Talk about twists, it really wedges your undies making you go 'whaaaaaaaat?!'. All that's left now is to load Apollo Justice and start it up again.

Last night I had a conversation with an acquaintance discussing dreams, fate, relationships, love and people. Often, it's the insight given by people whom we rarely talk to that makes so much sense and at times, ends up being the light that guides us out of the darkness. Like so many dark turbulent moments that I've been having and unlike so many other people who would have told me otherwise, he told me to give things a chance. I grew up a little too fast to remember that enjoying child-like moments ain't so bad and harmful to the self and image. Yet... there's still so many things that pull me back and away from completely letting myself go.

A phonecall in the afternoon made my day (but sparked a lot of questions thereafter). I hadn't laughed that hard in awhile.

Lately it seems that a number of things been trivialized. I feel a lil' misunderstood. By a number of people. I'm becoming a little less... tolerant of things? Things that may have tickled my fancy once a long time ago? It isn't that I'm bored. There's something wrong and I think it lies in me. I don't know what. At times it seems that everything eventually falls into a sorta pattern. The similarities. Maybe I expected too much or... maybe I had thought wrong.

Regretting too much of the silly things that I've done. I ought to have woken up, accepted it and moved on. Yet I can't seem to get over the fact that I wasted so much potential, so much of my life. And I can't ever get it back.

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