stop running away.
face up to your issues, your problems.
from now on, here comes change.

yes. i'm sick and fed up of everything. i've cried it all out. i've cursed it all out. i'm not gonna be the same ol' me anymore. i promise. things will be different. i will be different. 110% in everything. no more griping. no more whining. no more excuses.

but i still won't change my decision. i will stay for a full year. in that time i will make sure i made what was 'entrusted' to me the most fuckass happening piece of shit ever. even at the expense of my soul. and when i leave, there will be no one else who can fill that role, that gap.

i'll have second doubts and all. from somewhere that i've read and always thought it was cliched - when you're down so f-u-c-k-i-n-g low, there's nowhere else to go but up.

and up i'll go.