the budget girl's way is via online shopping, in bulk. i like presents in the mail, clothes in the mail. i wish i could devote more (or all) of my money to that. i had a really shitty fucked up day. i cried in an alley and in the toilet. i'm horrible because i failed to manage my anger and emotions and keep disappointing myself.

it's raining, suits the mood and everything else. more clothes more clothes MOREMOREMORE! this, is material happiness. that and food and running and slacking and doing nothing the whole day and not showering because you seriously can't be arsed.

i don't like a lot of things and a lot of people. but can't be helped can it? the world doesn't end with me, sadly. also, memory card for the r4 has fucked royally. serves me right. self-destruction much? maybe that's why girls keep long fingernails. everything you say is being screened by the world. from now on, less truthful whining.

Labels: self, thoughts