there's a lot of things to think about, to consider. a lot of things to do, a lot of things to change. my attitude towards certain issues, my anger (or rather overall emotional) management. i guess i'm not doing enough, sacrificing enough on my part and as a result, everything's just crumbling down. to have the same thing repeat itself, words always cutting deep.

but today promises new beginnings i suppose. or a nonchalant attitude from that certain someone.

had supper but i didn't eat. it was interesting to see things from a different perspective. of the lives within that particular circle, the one i never quite got the hang of fitting in. or rather, i don't think i ever could, with this particular social ineptness.

you were on my mind the whole time.

but you may not believe. may not read this. may not even... care.

i know what i have to do. grow up. and i will. you know, i feel pretty bummed. it was a moment to relish youth and innocence (yeah... laugh all you want. i know i'm not anymore), be in that giddy heady feeling. now i gotta stop it all and be serious.

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