Would you consider this a vicious cycle?

It's my fault really. Has to be. Even if I'm depressed by it, hurt by it, there's no one that can be blamed but myself.

I make sudden plans, like on the day or night itself. Even though he's out with his friends somehow I still end up coming along, possibly ruining his fun. Making him take care of me when I'm drunk. Making him entertain me when he has a lot of things to do. Making him wait for me after work and wait for me to come down to have breakfast or wake up to have breakfast or meet up wherever it is that we had planned.

I guess that's the end of it la. He did say that once he gets fed-up or tired he won't call or contact or anything. I've already done enough damage.

Only thing I can do now is just to stay away.