i don't like you (at all)
i failed myself.
it was only day 4.
i just wanna go home.
please.
i don't want to hear about how badly i screwed up.
i don't want to hear about how i'm running away from things.
i don't want to hear about how i could make things better.
i don't want to hear about facing up to things.
i don't like she who shares the same name as i do. i'm angry that i'm not included in a process that is eventually meant to be managed by me. but someone said that shit like that happens so i have to suck it in and smile and pretend and deal with it.
i really hate this. but i don't have a choice. not yet.
can't wait to get out of this hell. leen told me that the only thing holding me back are the people. well, some. maybe the benefits. but for everything else, i've got nothing to lose.
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