i don't like double standards.

like it's perfectly fine for someone to do something and i'm even expected to understand and not be sore or annoyed by it. if i am, it's my fault and stuff like that and then the mighty trout of reasoning slaps me in the face and i have no right to feel and react that way.

but it's always different when it's the other person. i do something and i'm being guilt-tripped into feeling as if i shouldn't be doing it and i'm selfish in a sense that i never even considered the other person's feelings or if they wanted to be part of whatever nonsensical festivities.

so it's just really frustrating. i don't like it that i have to be the one who's understanding and more often than not, give in and be forced to swallow my feelings (no matter how rational or irrational they are) and pretend that everything is ok. that's just not fair.

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