Who needs superheroes? It's not as if they can save everyone. Only those truly in need will get attention. Why would I need one? I kill cockroaches even though I'm fucking terrified of those creeps. I walk home alone most nights, where banglas and other random construction workers are all lepaking around with their bottles of cheap beer and playing crappy music. I pay for my bills and (most of) my driving fees. I travel everywhere myself, my brother rarely gives me a ride unless held at butterknife-point by mum.

So really. Why would I need one when I do almost everything by myself? I should just get married to myself. That would make it all better no? Of course it will. /sarcasm

But truly, the one thing that saddens me is that you think its so easy for me to move on. Well, you did tell me to fuck off till I know what you want and what I want. Honestly, I don't know what I want. Not anymore. And with regards to you, I don't think it matters anymore. You've taken your leave anyway. Just another status change, maybe block me on Friendster/FaceBook/MSN. Know what? It doesn't matter. I'm not gonna give you orders and turn you into a robot just to satisfy my whims.

But of course, it is easy for you. After all, the possibility of said nightmare happening is high isn't it? I remember what you said: It might happen. Well, now's a pretty good opportunity no? Say byebye to psycho girls who don't seem to know what they want.

Lesson to be learnt: Don't be such a stupid girl. Stop doing stupid things. Falling in love and love in general is a farce. I don't know why I do all those stupid silly things. After all, I am an insensitive selfish bitch. :)

But I will heed Chris's advice. Stay away from 'old' flames and keep away from 'new' ones. And thanks Warren for coming down to smoke with me. It cheered me up. I'm not crying. Not at all. Because it doesn't do anything and it's stupid anyway.

Hiatus, till I find something more interesting to talk about.

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